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September 06, 2002 - 11:04 pm im so damn confused. last nite after my last post, i took a nap til like 9; then i was online and beth was like do you wanna get food and then come over and watch a movie. i was like sure ok. so she picked me up around 11 and we went to blockbuster and then lyndhurst diner and then to her house and watched queen of the damned. Towards the end i was fallin asleep cuz i was tired and then i stayed up for the deleted scenes and then i just passed out on the couch downstairs and she went up to her room to go to bed. 9:45 came and my phone rang- it was jaysin so i talked to him for a few minutes and then i went to wake beth up but she never went to sleep sooo i cut her hair and then she cut mine and we were having a very interesting discussion during the process. very very interesting- hence confusion once again. then we were watchin tv and now its like 1 and beth said she was goin back to bed so i got changed and watched more tv and then called jay and he said hed come pick me up so hes on his way and beth comes downstairs on the phone! she never took a shower or went to sleep and then wanted to go to the mall. i felt really bad cuz i wouldve hung out with her if he wasnt already on his way so she said well ill just drop you off then- lemmie take a shower and then she got in the shower and he showed up so i just left. =( i called and left a message for her to let her know where i went but i still fell bad cuz it was kinda rude. im an evil bitch and i deserve to die. so we hung out today. what else is new? the body shop didnt even touch my car yet. im a lil annoyed but good things come to those who wait i guess. i dunno we didnt do much. now im home and im eatin cuz i didnt eat anything all day and im starving. so i dunno what to do about beth and jay. its hard enough to choose between them, let alone choose genders. I am really starting to like jay because hes just a nice person and i have fun hanging out with him. and the more time i spend with beth the more i learn about her and i want to know more. i mean sometimes things get a little tense and uncomfortable- well for me at least but i mean ive liked this girl for 3 years and i really didnt like what she said about me in her diary but i guess everyone has bad days, right? i wish i could go back to being single me- its much safer that way... no one to hurt me. i'm taking such a chance on jay right now- i didnt want to be with anyone, not that we are even dating i dont think i dunno i really dont know and i guess i should ask but i feel kinda stupid saying "are you my boyfriend" cuz then if he says no then hell feel bad or whatever. change of subject: mick, elliot and andre got fired this week. i'm going back to work for my brother on monday. archery instructor aka wonderwoman - September 25, 2017 |