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February 11, 2002 - 10:26 pm you've just been dumped so what are you gonna do now well im not goin to disneyland if thats what youre wondering--- infact im trying to get drunk but thers hardly anything to drink around here... so once again i will be lonely on valentines day. guess i dont have to go shopping tomorrow. fuckin women. its funny cuz i read my last entry just before i started writing this one and ive already started on the path to destruction-- it started thursday nite or maybe it was friday. all i know is that the cut in my wrist keeps getting longer and deeper and im enjoying it. it makes me feel alive0---- not so numb like im becoming.. i have interview on wednesday. an actual honest to god interview for a reall job. im so excited. i need to not be so numb in this world. i need to love and feel loved but thats kinda impossible when you dont have a heart. previous - next archery instructor aka wonderwoman - September 25, 2017 missing jay! - September 15, 2017 trying to remember, and wishing I could forget - September 07, 2017 completely overwhelmed - September 05, 2017 16 girl scouts - August 25, 2017